MY PARALLEL LIVES
Exhibited in Maksla XO gallery / Riga, December of 2013 - January of 2014
Medium: 10 paintings, oil on canvas
“In our contemporary culture, a human is perceived as body, mind and social conditioning which together constructs “a person” with its story. When people meet for the first time, the first thing they would tell each other is their social role and conditions, like, – I am a bookkeeper, – but I am a cook.
And one of the main questions we would ask to children is – what will you be when you grow up – meaning, what role will you play to legitimize your human existence in a society, and not so much – what dreams do you dream, what do you want to experience, what do you want to create.
What I am most drawn to in my own intimate mental processes is the primordial alive part which feels the initial “I AM” without attached adjectives and objects. And only after standing strong and still in the very being itself, later, the object is added – WHAT am I – as a changeable beautiful play. And it is felt most clearly in one’s childhood, when one can instantly switch from being “a princess” to being “a butterfly” to being “a nurse” etc. and still retain the strong feeling of SELF.
The paintings I have been creating for this very intimate to me exhibition are particular symbolic images which dwell in our psyche (like huntsman, shepherd, wife, virgin, etc.).
They sometimes simultaneously co-exist in a friendly way, sometimes fight, and through them – adapting and trying them on, emotionally identifying with them, retaining in a special individual way or neglecting – our human experience is gained, the “personality” is constructed or re-constructed and the life is being lived.
“I AM… (one image or another)” gives uniqueness and individuality to the self, creating an intimate, singular and distinctive universe of an individual human.”